11:18 am
Well, aside from coming out of a few weeks of self-centered, poor-me doldrums, AND making it to 22 weeks plus 4 days today, which is the LONGEST I’VE EVER GONE SOBER–I have issues with WP.
One is, I am no longer seeing some people’s posts in my Reader feed. I haven’t made any changes to my settings, so I’m not sure why this is happening.
Two, and again I’m not sure what’s going on here, when I go to comment on some blogs that I’ve been commenting on for over a year, the system is prompting me to put in my identity, doesn’t include my personal gravatar, and appears to need approval from the blogger (isn’t it that once you comment, and are approved, your comments are always approved with no need for the blogger to approve you each and every time?).
Help! I’ve looked through all my settings and don’t know. I haven’t made any changes to them, so I’m lost. Thanks, friends…
Drunky Drunk Girl 
The only WP issue I’ve been having is when I try to comment using the WP app ony phone. I’ll write a comment and then hit the post comment button and it freezes. I’m pretty new to this blogging thing, still don’t know how most of the settings work.
Some bloggers have set it so all comments on their blogs have to be approved by them. So that is a setting you can do nothing about.
I see you. I found these messages. I still love the color of wine but somehow have totally lost the taste for it. That is so odd after so many years. Sobriety has been a conscious effort for me. It’s ridiculous how ingrained a habit it has been for me.
I can longer see your posts either! I was just looking at your blog this morning because it felt like you hadn’t posted for ages – but here you are posting away and pureeing sprouts! I also have the same issue about commenting on some people’s blogs – all of a sudden my comments are awaiting moderation?
Haha. Yes, pureeing sprouts! Who’d wanna miss that?
Arg. Have to figure this out. Thanks for checking in, and hope you’re feeling strong and sober. 🙂
Oh, interesting that Paul has this issue with your blog too. Because yep, I’ve tried unfollowing and re-following you and it doesn’t matter – you don’t show up in my reader anymore. You did once upon a time though so it’s weird. I’ll let you know if it changes.
AND A MOTHERFUCKING HUGE GLITTERY UNICORN PARADE FOR YOU FOR THE LONGEST EVER SOBER. Passing those milestones is a BIG deal. So go celebrate the fuck out of it 🙂 xxx
Thanks, girl! Yeah, 160 days felt pretty great–it just has a nice ring, and is SO close to 180 that I know I have nothing to worry about. But…what happens after 180? Right now, it seems like just continuing on is really the only thing that makes sense. I do like having the number goal, though, so…I might set another date, like another 90 days or something.
Hmm…have to figure out what’s up. I didn’t change any of my settings in WP.
Well Carrie and I have decided to beat the post 100 slump by going for one year together. You are almost halfway there – join us! With a big treat/celebration on your anniversary day each month. Mine is the 5th, hers is the 10th, what’s yours? Xx
Wow, year!? That’s wonderful. I think mine is the 12th…
Well, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still struggling slightly mentally about it all right now (will post on that soon I’m sure) but I’m hoping a new goal will help nudge me out of my slump. And I like the idea of monthly celebrations 🙂 I’m going back to my toolbox at the moment – going back to eve thing that’s worked to date and REALLY having to remind myself why I’m doing this cause fucking Wolfie has been in my ear with the ‘maybe you weren’t that bad’ crap. Fucking Wolfie. %#^*#%^
Yes, I know! I know. I had a rough time between 90 days and well, 22 weeks (so, yeah, 13 to 22 weeks) last time. It wasn’t that bad until about the last 2 or 3 weeks, and by then I was just SO convinced that drinking was what I wanted, needed, etc. And, well, I drank when I wasn’t ready, and when I was feeling desperate. IF I was thinking of trying moderation, THEN was not the time to do so. #fail
This time around has been MUCH easier–mainly b/c that night is so fresh in my mind. If anything, roll through the video in your mind, and look at it from a practical perspective: what’s going to happen if you drink? If nothing else goes wrong, you’re going to have a bad hangover. UGH! Ugh ugh ugh. I cannot DEAL anymore with being hung over. It’s so mentally and spiritually draining. The anxiety, the depression, everything. And, I think we’re on the same page there.
I know I know I know Wolfie is loud right now, but take it from me, once you get over that hump, it starts to feel GOOD again. My hump seems to have been this month–I really wanted to say “fuck it” so many nights. But, not only am I relieved that I didn’t give in, but I’m feeling happy about it.
That’s not to say that I would not consider trying moderation again…at some point in the future. It’s simply just easier right now to keep doing what I’ve been doing. For me, I know I have to come to a place of absolute indifference, take it or leave it attitude, with wine. I have to “recover” enough to be able to choose to drink, and to not drink; to be able to weigh my options without a pull, or emotional connection, toward wine.
I think SOME people can get to that point, but I also think that like Belle says, if it’s not broke? I mean, why would I go back to drinking wine when everything seems to be OK–work, social life, relationship, personal writing–without it? What will it add? I can do without the buzz, I really can. So…what would it add? Is that fucking wolfie just talking in my ear, or is that my newly “recovered” brain saying it’s OK, I can (want to) control my drinking now?
Hang in there, and yes, set a new, achievable goal! A year sounds long. Why not shoot for 180 days?
Major hugs, and extra glitter balls coming your way.
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