Sunday afternoon ramblings

4 Oct

2:53 pm

As I wrote about recently, over the past few weeks (going on a month now, actually), I’ve had terrible leg pain. I thought I had some terrible disease (of course, I did), so I went to the doctor–a first in that, this doc took me seriously and ran every blood test possible for a complaint like, “my legs hurt”–and, well…nothing is wrong. No Covid, no infectious disease, no autoimmune disease, blood panel good, muscles fine. I also got a blood test done for both my estrogen and progesterone levels, and for where I am at in the process of both menopause and taking estradiol via the patch, those came back normal, too.

SO, I have to conclude that it’s something to do with the estradiol patch (which, btw, is only one method of transdermal application; there are also creams, gels, sprays, probably others). And, that kind of really sucks since, I don’t know if another via-the-skin application will work for me. I am going to keep riding it out and see what happens.

So, that’s one reason I’ve been quiet on my blog, I’m just trying to take care of myself–mentally, it’s really hard for me to accept pain and not being able to work out because of pain. I usually just push through pain, but my muscles seem to take days to recover from even the slightest workout, so I have been obeying my body’s commands. It’s not easy not knowing either; and, I’ll never know unless I take the time to go off everything, let my body readjust, and then, go back on things one at a time. The patch is working for my night heat and insomnia, though, which is glorious!? Still, if I can’t live WITH the medication, then…it’d have to be a dealbreaker.

I am well, and my doctors took me very seriously–so, a huge win. Plus, it appears that I never got Covid, which is a relief as well.

I’ve been working full-time and will start working a new remote contract gig this week, putting me at full-time-plus for the next few months, so…that’s been great! It’s a relief to have work, sure, but even more of a relief to not have to job and gig search for a while.

Another thing that’s been going on is that my dad has gotten himself into some physical trouble (think: crashing cars and breaking bones) due to well, untreated bipolar disorder (in my opinion). Long story short, he’s doing fine but he’s still up to his tricks, so to speak. Lesson learned on my part: he will never change until and unless he takes medication; he will never admit anything is wrong; and, importantly, there is nothing I can do for him. I have thought of telling him, I refuse to talk to you until you get meds, but, I don’t quite get how an “intervention” or “ultimatum” would truly work or be beneficial for a mental health disorder like his. He doesn’t believe–refuses to believe–that there is anything wrong. How can you force him to consider an ultimatum that doesn’t really mesh with his version of reality? I don’t know.

On that note, I am going to exhale–my mantra these days–and go for a walk. I can do that at least; it’s funny how much of an “athlete” I am: I have already acclimated to this new level of pain and have found ways around it. I will never stop working out! (maybe that’s what got me here to begin with? lol)

Thank you, one and all, for still being part of my life. This blog-o-sphere is truly one of my favorite places to be on a Sunday afternoon…

4 Responses to “Sunday afternoon ramblings”

  1. Ainsobriety October 4, 2020 at 6:24 pm #

    I have to say that I have had a similar experience.
    I have lymphedema in one leg. Some days it is very swollen. I have bad joint pain in the mornings in many joints.

    All my tests are normal. I feel like I should be perfectly healthy. I suppose much of it is aging…

    It’s a complicated high to have discomfort and no explanation. I really don’t like it, but I’m glad nothing terrible is wrong. Sigh.

    Congrats on the work! That’s great!

    Anne

  2. Untipsyteacher October 4, 2020 at 7:01 pm #

    Yes, congratulations on your work!
    I love your mantra “exhale”.
    I am using “breathe” as well.
    xo
    Wendy
    PS -I do hope your leg pain gets better!

  3. Dwight Hyde October 4, 2020 at 8:32 pm #

    So sorry to hear of your daily pain. To say that wears on you is an understatement. You are definitely a warrior by powering through it by walking and keeping yourself up by focusing on what’s going right in your life like your new gig and to actually have a dr who listens to a patient- brilliant! Keeping swinging and your chin up my super hero!

  4. Lovie Price October 6, 2020 at 5:20 am #

    i haven’t been on here much recently…its good to read through the missed posts . Somehow knowing that many things written about make me feel less alone and weird during all of this as i wonder daily how long this will go on. My home care kiddo ( i’m a nurse) had to get tested for covid which put me off work for a few days as i found out i dont qualify to use a N95 mask( allergies, heart arrythmia, and this time around- symptoms of the “cold” it turned out he had and passed to me as usual) it was a long 3 day wait as i suffered the symptoms and had to keep it in my mind”what if he tests positive?”.Thankfully all is well…but i do understand the stress and worry. I hear all the time – it seems like no longer will”regular sick” be the rule.

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