8:18 pm
Lately, I’ve been doing a LOT of thinking, working, analyzing–one day, I keep telling myself, I won’t have to do what I do for a living; one day, I can do something different. Then, I look at how much it costs to buy a home and think, um, yeah, I better keep my day job, as it were!
Anyway, this morning, I had a really nice moment:
Between the “partly” and “cloudy,” we had a few minutes of sunshine. It is truly glorious here after a short, light rain: the water gets caught in all the tropical nooks and crannies, and it makes everything sparkle as the breeze blows.
I took my coffee outside and found a patch of sun and just stood there. I noticed a HUGEASS spider–we have these crazy-big, black-and-grey, striped spiders down here, and they like to weave their nests in the bush, from branch to branch. I saw it and just stared. Then, out of the corner of my eye, I saw motion, and it turned out to be this orangey lizard slowly and smoothly swishing its razor-fine tail back and forth in the light. Next, I fixated on a quiet bee meandering through the air, from one landing spot to a future one, no doubt. I could hear the near-symphony of sounds, scents, and movement in the air–all enveloped in this quiet calm. There was no rush, nothing to think about, nothing to analyze. It is, to me, a heavenly place, the natural world, especially the tropical one. So much life, and crosstalk, yet complete harmony.
Ahh, I thought. I’d love to be here one day, a part of this world; no longer analyzing, or trying to remember, or attempting to capture or somehow hold onto this moment. It’s an illusion, the stress of not holding onto it; there is no need to hold what does not go away, what is constant. And, in this rare moment this morning, all I wanted to do was have this moment, to observe it, and then, let it go. And, I did.
It’s been a long year so far, with every day presenting challenges to my motivation and sanity! However, I am reminded (thankfully, on days like today) of the “real-er” world around me, the one that does not need to be understood or made better or fixed; it never needs to be analyzed; its moments are special, but they are transient and meant to be let go.
I am glad I had a moment like this, this morning, to remember that good things are coming my way; just be here, now.
Drunky Drunk Girl 
I understand the analysing and thought going on.😂 Me too.
Your garden sounds great. I too am taking time to listen and watch nature. I have all the doors open and the symphony of cicadas is gorgeous. We have had a long dry summer. Unheard of here. Would love to have a little rain. The cicadas who chose this year to come out are so lucky. Perfect weather for them.
We have abundant bird life here. No lizards. Geckos are probably here but they’re really shy. Spiders are tiny here thank God. We share the house. Losing the battle with cobwebs so far.
Appreciating moments is what being present is all about. I have learnt so much from my cats. They rarely stress.
Enjoy the weekend 😊
It’s the little things! I enjoyed this nice reminder to be present to those smaller moments of peace in my day.
Beautifully expressed!!💕
i look forward to more moments like these soon as spring gets here. Right now, it’s been just a really long year, and a long winter . It is nice to “se” these things through someone else’s eyes at times , even if just to remember that the sun WILL come back someday.
I understand. I’ve recently started jogging again (after a twenty year break, during which time I was drinking my face off). Often, I stop on my run and look at the historic buildings all around me (I live in Savannah, Georgia). They’re moments of peace that I never had when I was drinking.