9:04 pm
Or, in my case, DC (Diet Coke).
I had a much better day today, and thought MUCH less about drinking than yesterday. Staying strong, kids, no matter what. If I can get through nights like last night, where the only thing between me and wine is sheer willpower, then I feel like the worst is behind me. I can do it, no matter how listless I feel.
Btw, does anyone else have a sense of “whew, that’s done” with the passing of every sober day? I hate to see days go, but I do feel like every day makes the next easier — overall. So, bring ’em fast, and bring ’em hard, cuz I want this shit to get easier!
Anyway, I sold a few big pieces of furniture today, prepared a few more things for sale tomorrow, and ran errands. I also received a few important pieces of mail — still not sure how long I have to stay here in order to fulfill my UI obligations, but it sounds like I can pay a prorated daily rate on my studio if I have to change my move-out date. What a relief. Oh, and my super fixed my toilet. All in all, lookin’ good on the domestic front.
Tonight, I’m not thinkin’ about drinkin’. I’m not letting myself. I’m thinking about future writing projects, new goals, things I’d like to try (visual/physical art — I’ve had a few ideas for some “installation” art and would love to try my hand at basic painting)… I’ll probably do laundry (I’m selling a rug tomorrow and I have to at least try and wash the wine stains from earlier this year out), bake cookies, and read. Kuh-razy Saturday night, eh?
Tomorrow, I’m showing a few more items for sale and going to see my eye doctor to get fit for contacts — all before noon. And, I KNOW I won’t be late or miss these appointments. Why? This right here, my friends.
It’s good to be sober!
Drunky Drunk Girl 
Great to see you’re setting yourself some positive goals, work towards them. Yes it does get better day by day, just hang in there an don’t give up! Forget the yesterdays and the past, but what you’ve learned from them take it with you to the todays and tomorrows.
YES! I think momentum is key, but also is self-love/respect, which comes back after you’ve quit drinkin’ and started following through on some of your goals. I met an artist today whose work totally inspired me to get crackin’ — don’t be afraid to try — on things I’ve never done (the visual/physical art-type stuff I mentioned)! Like Running On Sober said, though, some days are just better than others. Thanks so much for your comment!
holy cow, don’t you sound like a different chick! Way to turn it around 🙂 you’re looking at what’s coming up instead of what’s missing or what is behind you. New goals, new things to try. Do something big out in the world every day. help granny cross the street. read the sunday new york times front to back (don’t I wish i could do that!)… you sound amazing, so glad to read this update from you today 🙂
Haha. I do (almost) feel like helping granny! Your comments are awesome, Belle! I feel much better — some (a lot) of it is that this particularly raging bout of PMS is over. Why does this matter? Well, my back/sciatica really flares up during, my mood changes/fluctuates a lot more than usual, and overall, I just feel helpless, in pain, and defeated. Today, it’s bright eyes, bushy tail! I am, too, feeling like I’ve got some momentum goin’ thinking about my choice to leave, knowing it’s time to let go of the past, and realizing that yes, yes I do want to be back in NYC or at least striving to get back there (and to my stored things in Queens)! That’s my home, that’s where I belong…eventually. Lots of stuff going on with me, but yes, new goals and new things to try! (And, if I actually *wanted* to read the NYT cover to cover, I would pay for the subscription fee! 😉 ) Thanks for being there.
re the NYT, i can get it here, but i think it’s a week late. and then there’s all that election stuff that i’d have to avoid. mostly i want to read the arts and culture and movie and food stuff, and the magazine. i don’t like the online version, hard to take to the park (i guess i need an ipad after all…) happy days to all!