11:44 am
Well, that was interesting. I just got off Facebook and this blog and blah blah blah. Words, words, words. If anyone understands the peril of relying too heavily on words to explain, define, or clarify, it’s me!
You know, lately I’ve been feeling uncomfortable with all “social” media. Without going into it too much, it triggers me. I guess I have residual anxiety, but even anticipating a response–any kind–to a Facebook post, or a blog post, or an email makes me feel…uneasy. I don’t need this, and neither does my sobriety.
I’ve also been really struggling with the navel-gazing aspect to sobriety and to writing about the process of getting sober. Maybe I’ve been doing it too long and simply need a break. Let it be known that all is well, and words are only words–they can’t even come close to expressing the infinity of every moment, let alone of a life lived. All I can say is, this is a new post, and a new day, and I might simply stop writing about my sobriety in favor of writing about other stuff on here–or not! We’ll see.
On that note, I’m going to the beach. Or for a walk. Either would be great, as long as it doesn’t involve my brain. 🙂
Remember: your drinking and your sobriety, as a story source once told me, is only a part of your life. It’s not the whole story, that’s for sure. YOU have control over how you construct your reality. Today, my reality will consist of sun, sand, a very quieted mind, laundry, cleaning, quieting the mind again, job searching (ugh!), volunteer searching (yay!), and enjoying being outside myself. Maybe more walking, a little Bebel Gilberto, and some massive cheesy pasta dish later when the coqui frogs start making noise and let me know (again) that all IS really as it should be and I can relax into that notion. (I must admit, animals seem to make up my “higher power” to a large extent: doves, frogs, crickets, and my dogs, to name a few.)
Happy Sunday, all. Small part of a big, big, big reality, is my mantra today. And, let it go, let it go, let it go. 🙂
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Hey I like this.. sounds very healthy my friend. Go well on your walk and in whatever you choose to do (and write about)..I think a break sometimes.. especially from Facebook… can be a good thing. Or re-evaluate how you wan to use it. Whatever the case DDG I think you are sounding very wise xxxx
Whenever I pop in over here I love what you’ve written. I, for one, don’t give a shit (at least today) about social media. I choose to treat all communication with integrity. The numbers, likes, replies. re-posts, re-blogs will just make me a crazy person. I’m just going to do what I want, be with who I want, and follow writers/people I enjoy. Mrs. D had a great reply. You sound healthy and wise. Good stuff … as always.
Ditto, Lisa!
Your best post yet. By far.
Words, words, words. You and me both sister. Great post. Something I needed to read. Thanks.
Great attitude…especially for us who have endured this long and brutal winter. This posting was the “slingshot” into Spring I have been waiting for!!!
Your day sounds wonderful, and needed, and should days like that really come so few and far between? I say no. Treat yourself, do what makes you FEEL good. I know that I have used my head to make decisions instead of my heart and I’ve realized that it hasn’t worked out all that well. I thought I was being logical but as the saying goes, the heart wants what the heart wants.
I struggle with “social media” also. I am an extrovert at heart and its so difficult putting myself out there, maybe its like that for you too? Whatever the case I wish you nothing but the best. 🙂
I totally get this. I am taking a break (maybe permanently) from Facebook right now because it seems to cause all of this extra noise in my brain, and I am going for quiet. I want a peaceful life, so I have to make that happen, even if I am not up-to-date with the everyday happenings of my 500 closest friends. 🙂 Sometimes I have to take a step back from my blog, too, especially when I start to let it take up too much brain space. You have to do what is right for you. I also believe that sometimes triggers are good because they show us where we need to do some mental work, but sometimes you just need to choose calm and quiet! xx
Love this comment.
Sobriety only involves navel gazing if that’s the way you want your sobriety. There’s plenty going on out there to involve yourself in.
Yep, yep, yep…
I took a break from Facebook before Thanksgiving and still haven’t gone back to it. I hadn’t really thought about it as a trigger, but I think you’re right. It definitely triggers anxiety, which is never good for sobriety.
I go through ebb and flow with the blog too. It’s good to step back and refocus on the tangible, I’m about to do the same for a while. Hope you had a good walk!
Navel gazing! Ha.