11:53 am
…and, I am simply grateful!
Our beloved doggay has lived to see another day–in fact, she’s sleeping peacefully (?) in “her spot” in front of the door, and has only been between there and one of her beds since 3 am (when I finally stopped eating mac and cheese, used my slow-breathing technique–in for 5 seconds, hold for 10, out for 5–to cool down, and went back to bed to fall asleep). She actually stayed down for four hours, according to my boo, who got up at 7 to let her out.
(Btw, the bonus of being up at 3 in the morning is that I get to see Venus rise. If you haven’t seen Venus right now, rising above the northeastern horizon in the pre-dawn hour, you are in for a treat: it is shockingly bright, beaming from the sky like another moon, and huge. It’s a HUGE spot in the sky. I saw a shooting star–the Perseid meteor shower is going down right now–and noticed how high Mars was in the sky compared to the moon, rising later and later every night. Finally, I was also able to watch my girl doze, her head slightly illuminated in the waning moonlight, thinking, gosh, she is sweet. Fierce. And still here.)
Granted, all this sleeping on her part has been made possible ONLY by the trazadone we dosed her with around 9 pm last night. I have to accept the fact that she will likely exist in what I believe to be a drug induced-haze from here on out (maybe erroneously; I just hate having to med her up so much), but, it’s SO much better to sleep from 3 to 9 than to have her waking me up every hour on the hour, yelping for help to get up to switch beds.
So, she lives to see another day. And, I am grateful.
On another note, as I am inundated again with daily COVID news, I have to wonder: Have my aching, burning joints and body parts (entire feet, not just ankles) and frequent headaches been caused by COVID? Like, is this my experience with it? I am not going to get any tests (I don’t see the point in either an antibody or virus test, right now), so I guess I shouldn’t bother myself wondering, but… It’s been weeks, actually, since I’ve had joint pain, and I’ve had these headaches (usually in the mornings, but not always) on a somewhat regular basis. I never get headaches, so, they make me go, hmm/wtf, ouch, this hurts!
I don’t know. The symptoms seem so varied now, considering the descriptions of more and more COVID survivors; I guess I’ll just assume that my chikungunya (the mosquito-borne viral infection I got six summers ago) has resurged because my immunity was affected by lack of sleep, or stress, or heartache (my doggie!); and, hope that I am not infected with the coronavirus.
I’m glad you have some more time, and they it is soothing to you. I expect your dog appreciates the love.
I have a covid test scheduled tomorrow. My 17 yo has been sniffly and now has a fever, nothing exciting, but he’s definitely off. I woke yesterday with a sore throat, joints and headache. My stomach has been off. Testing is available by appointment.
In 2019 I would have taken some Advil and headed to work. Now, my employer requires a daily self assessment and I am not allowed back in the office until I have a negative test. Symptoms require a mandatory 10 day home quarantine. So I’m working from home again for at least another week.
It’s so hard to know what’s real and what’s enhanced by fear. Sigh.
Take care of yourself. Hug that dog.
Anne
I know, I was thinking that, even if I did get tested now, I have had headache and other symptoms for at least a few months! It’s really hard to say, I have it or not, when the symptoms can be light, variable, and come back regularly/last long-term! Hope you and your family stay well, and thanks, I will hug our dog!
Hugs to you and your sweet dog.
COVID has made the world go nutty.
If I cough or feel like I have a cold, my husband runs to get the thermometer! LOL
I had one test before an eye operation, that was negative.
But who knows. That was only for that one day.
Take care!
xo
Wendy
I think we’ve all wondered if we had COVID here and there but now that I know someone who has it I can loudly proclaim that if you have COVID, you will know without a shadow of a doubt that you have COVID. Lol. Unless you’re one of the lucky ones who are relatively asymptomatic, I suppose.
I wish I lived in an area where I could see Venus rise! It’s very urban where I live so I really only get to see the Moon. I can remember in my childhood when it was less dense around here we had a telescope and looked at some of the planets but that’s impossible these days.
Lots of people have been mentioning the slow breathing technique lately. I used it myself back when I was in early recovery… they called it “box breathing” because the breath lengths could be drawn as a box I guess. Kind of nonsensical now that I am actually thinking about it. It worked though! My cravings would go away after about 30 seconds of it. I haven’t done it at all in the last year or so but I should try bringing it back in stressful situations to see if it helps with other feelings. I’m sure it does.
Have a great day!